(Source: legacyofaaliyah)


Nothing is certain in this world but if there was one thing I was certain of…

It would be that I love you, unconditionally.  With every inch of my body; with every single space of my heart.  I’ve caged my heart for such a long time because I feared the pains of love and feared uncertainty.  I was stuck in a crossroads figuring out what I was more afraid of: loving you or losing you.  But I realized that because I loved you so much, I was terrified of losing you and not having you in my life.  
But now, my heart knows what it wants; I know what I want and I completely open my heart to you.  It belongs to you and only you.  And I’ve never been so sure of something in my entire life until you came along.  
You are my beautiful surprise, the one person I did not see coming.  I wasn’t expecting to fall in love with you, but you completely swept me off my feet.  Your love has genuinely made my world better and beautiful.  Amidst all my insecurities, when you tell me I’m beautiful, I feel like I can do anything. You inspire me to be the best that I can be and to see myself as the beautiful and strong woman you see me as.  God has been so good to me and you are evidence of how much He loves me.  You are truly a blessing, baby and I have no idea what I did to deserve someone as special as you.  
 I knew you were the One for a long time already but there were moments where I didn’t want to admit it to myself: the idea of forever with you.  It scared me because we didn’t know what was going to happen.  Again, nothing is certain.  I didn’t want to seem naive.  But the thought of forever with you made me genuinely happy.  It still continues to make me happy.  I want to spend the rest of my life with you.  I want to be able to be with you every single day.  To be greeted with a good morning kiss each morning, and to end the night, laying with you, with your arms wrapped around me.  A dream waiting to become a reality. 
Whatever our future holds, just know that I can’t wait to spend it with you.  And I can’t wait for the day where I can call you mine, forever.  Thank you for being that missing piece in my life.  Thank you for helping me believe in love again.  Thank you very being the person that I can entrust my heart to.  But most importantly, thank you for loving me for who I am and for bringing out the best in me.  
I love you with all of my heart, baby.  Nothing is ever going to change that.  


just wanna make you desserts, rub you down,  wash your clothes, be spontaneous, cuddle, build with you, have long telepathic talks, forgive you every time you mess up,  take your advice, write songs about you, tell the world im yours,  pray with you, let you see that who you were, are and will be is more than enough, be there when you’re down…the list goes on and on…


My 2013 has been one hell of a ride.  I had my shares of ups and downs but I have no regrets whatsoever.  The good has made me a better person.  The bad as made me a stronger person.  God has been so good to me this year even when my Walk ran jagged at times.  He has not left my side one bit and His blessings continued and continues to overflow.  My family, close friends, and boyfriend have been more than amazing and I can’t ask for a better support team.  And my direction in life is starting to make perfect sense. 

I am leaving 2013 behind now and heading into a new year as a stronger, independent, and God-fearing woman.  
I have no resolutions this year, but I will remind myself to stay true to who I am.  I am an imperfect human being who makes mistakes and will continue to make mistakes as long as I live.  And I will promise myself to treat each day as a new one and live it as if it was going to be my last.  
I have no idea what God has in store for me this year, but I’m ready for whatever trials and successes will come my way.  
Hello 2014. 
Being a Youth Leader

I’ve been working with the youth ever since I was a senior in high school (even though I was a youth myself).  To be looked up to and told that you’ve made a difference in a young person’s life is one of the most fulfilling feelings I have ever felt in my life.  And from that moment on, I knew that one of my purposes in life was to work with young people and make a difference.  I didn’t know how I was going to do that.  I didn’t know how I was going to even approach that endeavor. I just knew that I had this passion for it.

When an opportunity came to be a youth leader at Good Shepherd Community Church, I couldn’t pass that up.  I’ve been a Pillar for about three years now and I will admit, it is not the easiest job in the world, especially when you are tempted and tried from left to right.  There were times where I felt like I failed my fellow Pillars and my youth.  There were times where I thought, maybe I’m not capable for this; maybe I wasn’t the right person for this.  There were times where I didn’t feel like leading, didn’t feel like being a Pillar anymore.  But time and time again, God showed me and reminded me why I was His perfect candidate and why I was placed in this position that I am in.  
We just had our first ever Youth Camp this weekend, and now I know that I’m in this for the long haul.  I have never been so blessed to see youth come together to worship the Lord.  I’ve seen these kids work so hard, play hard, support each other, and just show so much love for one another.  As a youth leader, it’s definitely a proud moment that will be kept in the books forever.  And at the bonfire, tears pouring down on these young peoples’ faces, seeing them walk up to be prayed for, accepting Jesus as their Lord and Savior.  Everyone was just overcome by the Holy Spirit and how can someone not be overwhelmed by that?  And this was all God.  He made all of this happen and to be personally chosen by Him to lead the youth on their personal Walks is a privilege and a blessing.  
And I don’t do this for the fulfillment of my own happiness.  I’m doing this for the kids.  If there was one thing I learned about being a youth leader is to not be self-centered, but other-centered.  Everything that God has led me to do, it was to help others in one way or another.  I want to see these youth grow in their faith and know Christ like I know Him.  I want them to experience how amazing our God is.  If I can do that, make that small difference, I know that my service to God as a Pillar is what I’m supposed to be doing.  
I know that this journey isn’t going to get any easier, but I’m willing to move through the trials and struggles if this is what the reward feels like.  If this is what’s going to put a smile on God’s face, then I’ll endure.  And because I know God will be with me through all of this, I have nothing to worry about.  God has never left my side once, why would He now?  
I love being a Pillar.  I love what I do as a Pillar.  And I love my youth.  I can’t ask for anything better.  
nathanopl asked:
dude loving the music on repeat for the past hour love the beat too :3 keep it up!!!!

Aww! Thanks, homie! :) means a lot! I’ll definitely tell my boyfriend you’re feeling the beat!